Today marks 37 weeks, 3 days into this pregnancy.
Yesterday I had an emotional breakdown.
There is a fear of the unknown in all walks of life, in all new adventures, in everything that we encounter.
I was induced with Mia. As far as this pregnancy is concerned all things are leading towards the fact that I will go into labor on my own unless I go beyond 40 weeks.
Last night, I had a moment.
A moment, while Mia slept next to me, where I thought, wow, this could be the last night I have just Mia. And that is when I lost it. I just couldn't calm myself down. I was so taken over by emotion.
I just needed a hug, so I climbed out of bed and went downstairs and after my Husband figured out that I was ok and that I wasn't needing a ride to the hospital we talked about it. I did feel better and had a decent night's sleep, but holy cow was I a basket case.
That fear of the unknown for me as we embark on these last few weeks or days of this pregnancy scares me more than anything. The balance of two children, two full time working parents, my job while I'm away, my home, my life. Making sure everyone is ok and taken care of. What will it be like. How will we transition. Most importantly, how will Mia do.
In time, I know everything will be fine. We are a strong, close and supportive family, but until that time comes and I know for certain I will just do my best to embrace this time with Mia, embrace this time with our little family of three and prepare for meeting our newest daughter whenever that time shall come.
Life is a rollercoaster, one climb at a time.
Have a great week!